Work has been crushing me with tight deadlines and an excessive amount of side projects, it has me so stressed. I’ve got no one to turn to for help. My boss doesn’t care, he ran into a significant amount of money last year, enough to retire comfortably in his 40s, so he just blows everything off and doesn’t give a damn because he’s got nothing to lose. My anxiety is through the roof. I have been overthinking every interaction then dissecting them for hours later. I feel like I am constantly messing up, making a fool of myself and I’m certain that everyone around hates me. I literally have no one to vent to. I keep persisting despite the hardships because that’s what I’ve been programmed to do from a young age, but I’m on such a knife-edge swinging from pushing through because it’s only temporary, to wanting to throw everything away and just disappear myself. I can’t function normally without medication but going back on would put everything in jeopardy, not only my career but my pride and self-worth. I’m tired. Thanks for listening/reading.
I’m tired
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That sounds really tough. Is it your boss which is giving you all this work to do or is it just work to do and your boss isnt giving you any support (or both)?
I think your situation comes down to choice:
a. you can get another job somewhere else.
b. speak to your bosses boss if there is one/ union?
c. develop strategies to cope with the situation.
d. do nothing.
One strategy I had when I went into a new job role was to have a therapist which I'd speak to once a month, just about the job, it really helped as I then had someone to vent to.
That sounds really tough. Is it your boss which is giving you all this work to do or is it just work to do and your boss isnt giving you any support (or both)?
I think your situation comes down to choice:
a. you can get another job somewhere else.
b. speak to your bosses boss if there is one/ union?
c. develop strategies to cope with the situation.
d. do nothing.
One strategy I had when I went into a new job role was to have a therapist which I'd speak to once a month, just about the job, it really helped as I then had someone to vent to.
You have us to vent to. This is a really great place to vent.
It sounds like the worry is taking over your life. Have you heard about 'worry time'? It's when you set aside 20 minutes or half an hour once a day, or once every few days, to focuses on worrying, and the rest of the time you do your best to put your worries aside. Whatever it is you are dreading, worrying about it won't stop it from happening. I really doubt the people around you hate you; hate is an uncommon emotion, and most of us reserve for just a few very special people in our lives (! - that was my attempt at a joke). But let's suppose for the sake of argument that the worst has happened and they do all hate you. Well, worrying isn't going to fix that. To put it another way; it's not all these other things that are making your life unbearable; it's the worrying about them. Worry is making you overthink and it's giving you intrusive thoughts.
If your boss can afford to retire, why hasn't he? I can see it must be unnerving working for someone who no longer gives a shit, but if he doesn't care, why is he still there? Is he weird?
It sounds like the worry is taking over your life. Have you heard about 'worry time'? It's when you set aside 20 minutes or half an hour once a day, or once every few days, to focuses on worrying, and the rest of the time you do your best to put your worries aside. Whatever it is you are dreading, worrying about it won't stop it from happening. I really doubt the people around you hate you; hate is an uncommon emotion, and most of us reserve for just a few very special people in our lives (! - that was my attempt at a joke). But let's suppose for the sake of argument that the worst has happened and they do all hate you. Well, worrying isn't going to fix that. To put it another way; it's not all these other things that are making your life unbearable; it's the worrying about them. Worry is making you overthink and it's giving you intrusive thoughts.
If your boss can afford to retire, why hasn't he? I can see it must be unnerving working for someone who no longer gives a shit, but if he doesn't care, why is he still there? Is he weird?
Thank you for your reply and breaking down to choices. Sorry my post doesn’t make much sense now that I re-read it, I was so overwhelmed I just needed to get it out. In answer to your question my boss doesn’t give me any support and I feel like I am drowning. He gets bypassed in a lot of correspondence that i have to cc him on later because people often deal directly with me. I don’t know how to improve my work performance because the feedback I get is that ‘everything is fine’ - which is hardly reassuring coming from someone who takes the path of least resistance to avoid conflict at all cost. I worked with my therapist on coping strategies for years and they usually work well enough. Recently I had to start taking medication for my sleep again, because my mind is so wound-up with work I can’t sleep. That being said, I am feeling a little better now I have been talking about it with you. Again I’m sorry I’m not very good at articulating when there are so many levels to unpack.
Thank you for taking the time to reply @Licorice . I haven’t heard of worry time, but it sounds like what I am doing 24/7. I’m a naturally anxious person and this additional stress has overfilled my cup. I honestly don’t know why my boss stays, maybe for entertainment watching my flounder. It’s frustrating as I mentioned to @Inastorm I don’t know how to improve because his only concern is making sure his day goes smoothly. His
Thank you for taking the time to reply @Licorice . I haven’t heard of worry time, but it sounds like what I am doing 24/7. I’m a naturally anxious person and this additional stress has overfilled my cup. I honestly don’t know why my boss stays, maybe for entertainment watching my flounder. It’s frustrating as I mentioned to @Inastorm I don’t know how to improve because his only concern is making sure his day goes smoothly. His
I was so stressed and anxious when I left work today even my exercise routine couldn’t wind me down. I am filled with absolute dread seeing unread emails in my inbox or hearing my phone ring. Worst-case scenarios have running through my head all afternoon about me getting fired for incompetence. That would be the excuse I need to give up. I hate my job, I hate my life, but most of all I hate me.
