Experiment number 1

I keep feeling suicidal when I wake up in the morning so today I'm staying up. Im changing my sleeping pattern. See if that helps. I'll keep you guys updated

So i slept at 11 am. I woke up at 2pm. I didnt feel bad when I woke up I just went on with my day. So far so good tho I am finding it abit difficult to feel happy. Im here, I exist, I dont feel like killing myself. I cant ask for more then that. I'll try to update this post every day.

That's good news!

I hope you be able to make some changes that make things better.

You can ask for more than that though.

Just existing isn’t much of a reward for enduring the hard times. It’s not much of a motivation to get through them. Why not shoot for something better?