I messed up my knees about 5 years ago.
I got a standing desk because I thought standing at my computer would be healthier than sitting.
But I was standing for too long at a time with no breaks in between.
And I kept doing it.
I thought it was making me stronger, but I ended up ruining my body.
I went to doctors, they did tests and gave me exercises, but The MRI said there wasn't anything wrong.
Some of the exercises either hurt my knees or made my hip go out, so I stopped doing them.
I'm ashamed and embarrassed to go back to the doctor and ask for help and tell him I didn't do what he said to do.
He was a good doctor, I wish more were like him, but I feel like I wasted his time.
I've been researching how to fix my problem.
One of the things I found says you can't fix it unless you stop doing the thing that caused your problem in the first place.
But I can't not walk or stand.
I have to do basic life stuff, like cooking and cleaning.
I don't even have a job, I'm mooching off my parents.
I'd need a personal assistant or a nurse to help me move around and do things so I can recover, but I can't pay for it.
I'm not sure I can even recover at this point.
There's a "If you don't use it you lose it" thing to using your muscles.
And I haven't been "using them" for several years.
At least not properly.
I try exercising, but things come up, and I end up quitting for long periods of time.
I exercised today after goofing off for about 2 weeks.
It's late and I can't think of anything else to say.
I got a standing desk because I thought standing at my computer would be healthier than sitting.
But I was standing for too long at a time with no breaks in between.
And I kept doing it.
I thought it was making me stronger, but I ended up ruining my body.
I went to doctors, they did tests and gave me exercises, but The MRI said there wasn't anything wrong.
Some of the exercises either hurt my knees or made my hip go out, so I stopped doing them.
I'm ashamed and embarrassed to go back to the doctor and ask for help and tell him I didn't do what he said to do.
He was a good doctor, I wish more were like him, but I feel like I wasted his time.
I've been researching how to fix my problem.
One of the things I found says you can't fix it unless you stop doing the thing that caused your problem in the first place.
But I can't not walk or stand.
I have to do basic life stuff, like cooking and cleaning.
I don't even have a job, I'm mooching off my parents.
I'd need a personal assistant or a nurse to help me move around and do things so I can recover, but I can't pay for it.
I'm not sure I can even recover at this point.
There's a "If you don't use it you lose it" thing to using your muscles.
And I haven't been "using them" for several years.
At least not properly.
I try exercising, but things come up, and I end up quitting for long periods of time.
I exercised today after goofing off for about 2 weeks.
It's late and I can't think of anything else to say.
