38 and feel like 70

Body's fucked and broken. Can't enjoy anything like before. In mental and physical pain. Can't even walk without pain let alone do my activities that gave my life meaning. What the fuck do I do? Do I just end it before I become more crippled? I'm at my wits end. Planning my suicide right now. My girlfriend will find me

Hey Jezah,

I'm sorry that you're feeling so bad.

There's probably some treatments to try still, there's still a chance things could get better.

I can't imagine how hard it is for you. But you show true strength enduring every moment.

The contemplation of suicidehas never been greater than now

Sorry it's so bad Jezah

What sort of things would help?

Sleeping and not feeling anything is usually my favourite. Other than my pains healing I can't think of anything. I'm just so over everything

Sorry to see you suffer for so long my friend
Wish theres a way to help

i sleep a lot, i know i am supposed to be different, but it only gets worse