Diagnosis

I just got out of the hospital. I am diagnosed with major depressive disorder and suicidal ocd. I hate this. I hate my life already, I turned 18, now my life is a mistake, my parents are watching over my shoulder. I never wanted them to know I was suicidal, now they dont trust me. Why cant I just be normal? I fucking hate this.

To be honest , I am glad for you. Not really if your parents are abusive or overprotective. Maybe they will be for some upcoming months which is well yes as you said sad , freedom is addictive and obviously a human right. You're normal. Do you think people who have mental health disorders are not normal ? Just some different chemistry of brain and physiology ofcourse. Well your anger is valid , you can let it through scribbling with coloured crayons on paper , punch pillows , scream to angry songs or go for a run , workout and many more. I know you feel trapped but it's not for forever. Your parents won't watch out on you all the time and you will have the freedom and autonomy you desire. I hope your treatment of major depressive disorder and suicidal ocd goes well.

I know you feel bad about this, but I hope getting a diagnosis turns out to be a good thing. Sometimes it can lead to treatment, and at least in the short term it may help keep you safe.

I have been there. I am sorry your parents are not understanding. People who haven’t been on the inside of MDD never understand. I’m lucky to be around people who at least understand that they don’t understand.

I hope that you can be surrounded by a supportive group of people. You said you just turned 18 - so any plans of moving out? I’m guessing that may feel impossible right now. I’m sorry that you’re in that situation.

I lived for a while in a household full of people trying to recover from addiction/mental health issues. It was… challenging at times. But the understanding on offer was such a huge relief.

Instead of “why are you doing this, what’s wrong with you?” it was “I can tell you’re having a hard time, do what you need to do, wanna hang out?”

I miss it.

@Mimino, the problem I think is that you’re dealing with this in the first place. In a fair world, you wouldn’t have to. It fucking sucks, no two ways about it. I’m sorry.

But being diagnosed and having people take it seriously are the first steps toward recovering. I’m sure this has been a turning point, is representative of what’s wrong. And I’m also sure that it’s a pain in the ass. But in the end, I hope it can be a good thing for you.

Give your parents time to adjust to this. Their reaction is not helpful right now, no arguments there, but I’m betting you’ve known for a while that something is wrong, while it’s still new to them and they’re scared.

@Mimino I know a diagnosis can seem like the worst thing ever. I had a hard time with mine at first. But as some others have said, it is the first step to getting better.

I'm glad you are alive.

Are you still going to college this Fall?

Lots of people have mental issues through their lives.

I think even medicine says that most people will pass through depression at some moment.

It isn't something that you will go through alone.