I don't talk about him. I so badly want to and yet I so badly don't want to. I secretly wish I had someone on whom ' s shoulder I could rest my head on and talk about him and I .
The thing about grief is though , you can talk about it. But people will never know and how can they know , they weren't there with you creating memories , living moments , in love , happy
I am reading a book and oh boy it's been flooding my heart with all these emotions
The main characters are so us. I see the people I love everywhere but this book.. also I just love this book too and it's so sad and yet so happy.
I am afraid of finishing it as if that will make him go too but he's already gone
But I have been maladaptive daydreaming about him really often lately .
It's a lot of things " you're only 15 " yea and I loved him with all my life
I just want to hug him again
I just want us again and freeze time there
Words just can't capture it , it's so sad
I still feel him all around though
I will end it here .
PS. Please don't say it's going to get easy with time , I will move on eventually or breakups at this age hurt extra because the age is fragile . I know you may had good intentions but I don't want to hear it . It may get easy , it fluctuates all the time . I may move on but I will keep it within me and my age may make it feel extra tough but I don't think growing older is going to change anything. Not because I am hopeless but because I love him so much.
* The cigarettes spelling is incorrect in the title ðŸ˜ðŸ’€
The thing about grief is though , you can talk about it. But people will never know and how can they know , they weren't there with you creating memories , living moments , in love , happy
I am reading a book and oh boy it's been flooding my heart with all these emotions
The main characters are so us. I see the people I love everywhere but this book.. also I just love this book too and it's so sad and yet so happy.
I am afraid of finishing it as if that will make him go too but he's already gone
But I have been maladaptive daydreaming about him really often lately .
It's a lot of things " you're only 15 " yea and I loved him with all my life
I just want to hug him again
I just want us again and freeze time there
Words just can't capture it , it's so sad
I still feel him all around though
I will end it here .
PS. Please don't say it's going to get easy with time , I will move on eventually or breakups at this age hurt extra because the age is fragile . I know you may had good intentions but I don't want to hear it . It may get easy , it fluctuates all the time . I may move on but I will keep it within me and my age may make it feel extra tough but I don't think growing older is going to change anything. Not because I am hopeless but because I love him so much.
* The cigarettes spelling is incorrect in the title ðŸ˜ðŸ’€
