Everyone on the internet treats me like the way I do not want to be. The total opposite of how I wish to be. As a result, I feel very very very distressed. Just beyond the standard definition of miserable. What makes the situation even more miserable is how I get so distressed I dysregulate emotionally, thereby making me even more like the way I do not want to be. I am very insecure about my personality (years long obsession with typology) and it is making me consider suicide, but im too afraid to actually do it
It started when I was 13, Im 19 years old now.
my psychologist (and so did pretty much everyone on the internet basically) told me it was just psuedoscienece, which didnt really do much ocnsidering it meant so much to me. I introduced it to my brother, I relied on him so much to confirm the identity i was trying to give off, but he made fun of me and treat me like the opposite of how id like to be.
Like pretty much no one takes me seriously at all with my typology obsession, i cant help it though, i rely on it to feel enough pleasure and self-confidence to not kill myself.
yes but no one really does anything, other than like meaningless advice and stupidly long waiting times I dont know what to do. Only reaons i havent died yet is because i want to be alive to enjoy whatever it is i enjoy, and the potential of an unpleasant afterlife (embarrassing). I am very confused idk what to do, it is a lot more complicated than that
Im too extraverted too shallow too emotional too dramatic too irrational too impulsive etc I hate myself so much I wish i were the opposite everything about myself is gross to the point of feeling suicidal
i just hate myself so much. I am so deeply disgusted by myself, my lack of self-acceptance is getting in the way of enjoying anything. i get very obsessive over typology test results, they define my entire sense of self worth
I have tried it but it never works ever
Idk. I am overly concerned with what others think I compare myself to others a lot and the more someone has certain traits (e.g more introverted, dissociates more, speaks a certain way, uses words a certain way, etc) the more im jealous of them> Im overly critical of and hating of the vibes i give off
Im really struggling, i hate how on SHOUT i always get told "thank you for being so open and honest" thats like salt for the wound because it contradicts how id rather be
No one pays attention to me on mental health forums, I just get ignored, because evn there people view me the way I do not want to be viewed as (hysterical smelly impulsive dramatic childish etc)
Well maybe not necessarily ALL AT THE SAME TIME TO AN EXTREME but male, low bmi, less emotional (or less emotionally expressive, or rationalises emotions), more logical, more detached, more apathetic
these days if anyone compliments me on that kinda thing it feels so uncomfortable and fake and its massively outweighed by the most undesirable qualities
everyone on the internet thinks i am shallow and hysterical etc. I am feeling just beyond suicidal because of that. miserable all of the time. extreme self-discrepancy
It started when I was 13, Im 19 years old now.
my psychologist (and so did pretty much everyone on the internet basically) told me it was just psuedoscienece, which didnt really do much ocnsidering it meant so much to me. I introduced it to my brother, I relied on him so much to confirm the identity i was trying to give off, but he made fun of me and treat me like the opposite of how id like to be.
Like pretty much no one takes me seriously at all with my typology obsession, i cant help it though, i rely on it to feel enough pleasure and self-confidence to not kill myself.
yes but no one really does anything, other than like meaningless advice and stupidly long waiting times I dont know what to do. Only reaons i havent died yet is because i want to be alive to enjoy whatever it is i enjoy, and the potential of an unpleasant afterlife (embarrassing). I am very confused idk what to do, it is a lot more complicated than that
Im too extraverted too shallow too emotional too dramatic too irrational too impulsive etc I hate myself so much I wish i were the opposite everything about myself is gross to the point of feeling suicidal
i just hate myself so much. I am so deeply disgusted by myself, my lack of self-acceptance is getting in the way of enjoying anything. i get very obsessive over typology test results, they define my entire sense of self worth
I have tried it but it never works ever
Idk. I am overly concerned with what others think I compare myself to others a lot and the more someone has certain traits (e.g more introverted, dissociates more, speaks a certain way, uses words a certain way, etc) the more im jealous of them> Im overly critical of and hating of the vibes i give off
Im really struggling, i hate how on SHOUT i always get told "thank you for being so open and honest" thats like salt for the wound because it contradicts how id rather be
No one pays attention to me on mental health forums, I just get ignored, because evn there people view me the way I do not want to be viewed as (hysterical smelly impulsive dramatic childish etc)
Well maybe not necessarily ALL AT THE SAME TIME TO AN EXTREME but male, low bmi, less emotional (or less emotionally expressive, or rationalises emotions), more logical, more detached, more apathetic
these days if anyone compliments me on that kinda thing it feels so uncomfortable and fake and its massively outweighed by the most undesirable qualities
everyone on the internet thinks i am shallow and hysterical etc. I am feeling just beyond suicidal because of that. miserable all of the time. extreme self-discrepancy
