I hear how much pain and distress you're experiencing with body dysmorphia, and I want you to know that your struggles are valid and understandable. Living with these intense feelings about your appearance can be incredibly overwhelming and isolating. While it's a positive sign that you recognise the psychological nature of these thoughts, I know that awareness alone doesn't make the feelings any less real or easier to bear. Have you been able to connect with a mental health professional who specializes in body image issues and body dysmorphic disorder?
Please know that you matter deeply, and your worth extends far beyond your physical appearance. You are valued. ((hugs)).