Old and ugly

Glanced up at the mirror and was terrified and saddened by my reflection. I look very old, tired, worn, defeated, tapped out..my skin is wrinkled and riddled with adult acne, face and cheeks saggy, puffy under eye fat, frown lines, sad clown smile lines, lips forever chapped, lips split with a cut that often comes rather than go, sad, dull, lifeless eyes peering..my face does not hold youth and false promises anymore..it holds decay and reality..
I look like a stereotypical witch... someone that people warn their kids to stay away from.

I'm hideous.

This has added to my lifelong depression..
I'm soo saddened.. really want to hide inside forever with a bag or face covering on. No wonder I am left, isolated, and discarded...no wonder they all push me away and leave.

Hugs Milkjuggles

I am so sorry you feel this way my friend

I had the same problem - because my face was somehow "wide" and people bullied me. I even came one day to the point I wanted to move to Mauritania, because men cover their faces due to sand and sun. Then, when I started to take drugs and later sport - it changed completely. What I want to say is - there is a lot we can do to look better (from sport to anti acne creme, loose weight or even surgical with attention of course.

But for me - the outer image of a person is not what counts. Its the inside, your soul, your inner being what counts. You think my wife is a beauty queen? Oh no - but she is the nicest, most trustworthy and honest person I know. This is why I love her.

Your value does not lie in outside appearance - its inside. What you can change outside, just do it to feel better and avoid depression.

Hope it helps and works out for you.

@Milkjuggles

You haven't posted on the forums for a while, I hope you're ok.

Hi @Milkjuggles so sorry you are feeling like that 🥲. If you have some money, how about getting a new haircut or colour or getting your nails done? That always makes me feel a bit better 😊 x