Being me

I think Im trying too hard to push though what everyone else wants me to be. If I do what I think is in my best interest for myself am I really doing whats best for me? Or am I doing what I think is what's best for everyone else? Its a circle of screw you or screw me for the foreseeable future. Do I break the cycle or continue on the course Ive laid out for myself. Lovely, interesting, beautiful, smart, try-hard, horrible, liar, bitch, tease, daughter, mother, lover, friend. Ive been so many things. Gullible, horrible, amazing, life altering, I dont know what I am. When Im deciding for myself what do I want and see myself as? Please. Just. Stop.

I think we all have done things we regret, but at the same time we have all done things we are proud of. Life is a balance. No one is perfect at this job of living, but I think we do need some boundaries.

We should be who we are, don't try to impress others with moments of drama acting. Just be yourself. We should take care of ourselves. Give our bodies good food and exercise. We should try to think good thoughts about ourselves. Don't live with someone you dislike, notice the good things about yourself and understand you are loved, then love yourself.

With others no harm should be done. You can not control the thoughts and actions of others in any way. So don't try. Let them have their space and if they criticize you let it pass. Many times when people are pointing out the mistakes others make they are only talking about themselves without realizing it.

Be kind, be friendly and loving. This world responds to compassion and caring much better than the negative stuff. Good works will return to you. Read some good self-help books. Love always points the best path. Love

I am sorry you’re feeling pulled in different directions. you have to care for yourself. Is there a happy middle ground? What is the course you have laid out? you can share more if you want.
you are good.

I hope there's a way to find the right path for yourself. Maybe we can help you.