Good morning, It's been a while since I've been here in the community and posted. Not that the community here wasn't helpful, but I certainly needed to find my own path. I truly am grateful for the support that SF had given to me. The people here have always been welcoming with open arms. While I no longer visit here, I am glad it was here when I needed it. Many things have changed in my life from when I first came here. I think back to where I was, full of grief, broken hope, emptiness, and COVID-19 too boot. Seems that there was only one direction for me. But the powers that be lead me to this place. Here, I've met some really amazing people who showed true compassion for helping people and supporting them. While some friends have come and gone, others I have stayed in contact with. I always hope they are all well and living their lives to the fullest.
As stated above, I had a lot to figure out. With the loss of my wife, our pet, failed relationships and the world in utter chaos, all hope seemed lost. But it wasn't.... Some how and some way I had found the strength to put one foot in front of the other and crawl out of the shadows. In '21, I had changed careers briefly and was able to sustain my self financial with the lifestyle I so desired. However, that job wasn't meant to be and it left as quickly as it came. As I write this, I chuckle to myself seeing things in hind sight and how things unfolded. With the loss of this job, I became more cornered in the loss and chaos I was already experiencing. It was all adding up. Like many, I had "the plan" - in my case, sell all my worldy possessions and "wrap up loose ends". This really was the plan. What was the point right? A gal I had dated dumped me (yet another failed relationship), my world and sense of home was crumbling before my eyes. The logic was hard to deny and I knew what needed to be done....
So I started with my plan. I began to wrap things up, crossing my Tees and dotting my Issss. I had planned on coming a city here in my province and parking with a friend while I got the rest of things in order until I could execute my plan. With all of this said, that didn't happen. I ended up finding a really cool place to live. I found a little job and made a few friends. I went out a bit and partied here and there. When biking season of '22 came, I started biking more. Things began to unfold for me. I ended up finding a better job, I upgraded to a new bike. I began to feel a slight pulse with little signs of life.
The here and now - I am alive again. Maybe more so than I was before for many years. I have dusted the webs and crawled from the shadows and have taken life by the reigns. I have found success in many aspects of left, but I was unable to see anything beyond my misery and suffering for a very long time. I actively bike and work out, I think I've even bulked up a bit. I am working for a corporation with a thriving career as well as building a small business for myself. I have also met a lovely woman who I think the world of and vice versa. Things are really great for me. I have bad days, but I have learned that " offing" ones self is not the way. While things are good now doesn't mean they will be that way tomorrow. Know how to deal with the rain when it pours, maybe even have an umbrella handy ^_~ Self improvement is active, not passive. Every day I do my best to make myself a little better.
Speaking of rain, I wanted to say hello to my little friend in the land of rain. I hope you are well and life is giving you all that you want. I am thankful for our time together. I wish you nothing but the very best. Thank you all for listening to my morning rants. The day is young and biking season is afoot. Live life, do what you love, be the best you can, stay frosty, j
As stated above, I had a lot to figure out. With the loss of my wife, our pet, failed relationships and the world in utter chaos, all hope seemed lost. But it wasn't.... Some how and some way I had found the strength to put one foot in front of the other and crawl out of the shadows. In '21, I had changed careers briefly and was able to sustain my self financial with the lifestyle I so desired. However, that job wasn't meant to be and it left as quickly as it came. As I write this, I chuckle to myself seeing things in hind sight and how things unfolded. With the loss of this job, I became more cornered in the loss and chaos I was already experiencing. It was all adding up. Like many, I had "the plan" - in my case, sell all my worldy possessions and "wrap up loose ends". This really was the plan. What was the point right? A gal I had dated dumped me (yet another failed relationship), my world and sense of home was crumbling before my eyes. The logic was hard to deny and I knew what needed to be done....
So I started with my plan. I began to wrap things up, crossing my Tees and dotting my Issss. I had planned on coming a city here in my province and parking with a friend while I got the rest of things in order until I could execute my plan. With all of this said, that didn't happen. I ended up finding a really cool place to live. I found a little job and made a few friends. I went out a bit and partied here and there. When biking season of '22 came, I started biking more. Things began to unfold for me. I ended up finding a better job, I upgraded to a new bike. I began to feel a slight pulse with little signs of life.
The here and now - I am alive again. Maybe more so than I was before for many years. I have dusted the webs and crawled from the shadows and have taken life by the reigns. I have found success in many aspects of left, but I was unable to see anything beyond my misery and suffering for a very long time. I actively bike and work out, I think I've even bulked up a bit. I am working for a corporation with a thriving career as well as building a small business for myself. I have also met a lovely woman who I think the world of and vice versa. Things are really great for me. I have bad days, but I have learned that " offing" ones self is not the way. While things are good now doesn't mean they will be that way tomorrow. Know how to deal with the rain when it pours, maybe even have an umbrella handy ^_~ Self improvement is active, not passive. Every day I do my best to make myself a little better.
Speaking of rain, I wanted to say hello to my little friend in the land of rain. I hope you are well and life is giving you all that you want. I am thankful for our time together. I wish you nothing but the very best. Thank you all for listening to my morning rants. The day is young and biking season is afoot. Live life, do what you love, be the best you can, stay frosty, j
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