Hello Steph, welcome to SF
Looks like no one is here able to help suicidal, depressed people. Why?
There's no paid staff here. People are just on SF whenever they want to be (disclaimer, I'm not a staff member so I don't know if they ever have set hours).
It looks like maybe you just posted at a time when no one was on, or no one who usually replies to threads was on. Sometimes there's someone in chat if no one is active on the forums.
I'm sorry there was no one here to give you a reply.