Meet the ex boxss- the bully

He is an attorney in Columbia, SC. He is a BULLY. He has bullied me to the brink of despair. I performed my job in a manner I can be proud of. I wanted to leave but on my terms. Why am I so stupid??? I had three job offers while working for him. I turned them down because I wanted it to work so badly. You see working for attorneys is very difficult. I've been spit on, chased, cursed at, belittled, made to feel as if I shouldn't be living. Saunders was different. He has no heart; he has no soul. He only thinks of himself. When I told him that I suffer with depression he smiled and said he didn't care. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, he actually thinks it is funny. I have been through so much in my life. When my little girl was murdered it was as if the world stopped. Then my Dad died, then I got a divorce (which was a good thing), then I lost everything. All wanted to do was die all I've thought since my little girl died is I want to die too. To have someone think my depression was funny and not care I can't comprehend this. SHS fired me last Friday because I sent hm a text asking him to call the office. He called and screamed and cursed at me for over five minutes. It seemed like an eternity. I tried to talk to him but he told me to shut up. I know if I die that there will be many people who say "She was crazy, or she deserves to die or I'm glad she's gone." The saddest part of my life is that I've loved people so much and because I shared my feelings of depression with them they left me. So, here I am with no family and no friends. I can't even find someone to take my cat. I am so alone that my heart aches. Thank you for listening to me. I appreciate you all for understanding

Jesus, he sounds like a very awful person. I feel so sorry for what you are going through.

What I do when I feel that I somehow "deserve" the bad things that happen to me, or that I suffer because I am a defective person, is to try to look at the world in a more broad way. In the sense that, when I think about the horrors of history, or the undoubtedly innocent people who suffer greatly in all other parts of the world, and animals too, and the great wickedness of people when we look at the news, or read books about the pain that others very different from us have endured, etc. It seems clear to me then that the world isn't a nice and fair place, but rather a very broken place, and that can't possibly my fault. I think we are naturally inclined to believe that our immediate environment is somehow the objective order of things and it's our fault not fitting into it. But I think that if we look at the world outside of our own subjective experience is easier to see that that's not the case, that whatever our faults may be they are smaller than the evils of society in general.

I don't know if that helps. Please stay strong. I'll pray for you <3

So sorry to hear this. Please don't end your life over that jerk (I know it's not the only thing but it's a big one). Your kitty needs you. There are better attorneys out there for you to work for. I hope you can get away soon.

Some people are awful

Just want you to know I’m listening. It breaks my heart everything he put you through, on top of everything you’ve described going through. Your feelings matter so much, and no one should ever have disregarded or treated them with cruelty the way he did. You truly do deserve so much better.

I know it sucks being jobless, but I'd view that as a blessing in disguise. No job is worth being treated like that.

Even if people did say those things, after you died, I mean - screw them. No matter what you do, how you look, how you act, there will always be someone with something to say. The best reaction to this is passivity. Caring will only increase grief.

I'm sorry about what has happened to you, and your daughter. :/