And soon to be 40 in a few more months. I step back and look at how long that is, and I just get overwhelmed by how little I have to show for it. No family, no friends, never really focused on a career so I'm stuck with a job I absolutely dread going to every morning just to have enough to keep going. How do you even begin to fix things and start over this late in the game? I feel like I've wasted my entire life chasing one bad life decision after another.